Not all people in my life know my how my trust issues are taking up my whole. It's something that has been my problem for a couple of years already. I can say that my life has been open to anyone who wants to know it but not all have that chance in having my full trust. Honestly, trusting is really hard for me to do. It's those series of experiences and bitch moments that made me stop.
During high school, any kind of trust I had was broken. I know it's high school but nothing has ever made me feel that trusting is okay anymore. I was purely traumatised and scared of the things that will happen in the future even though I sometimes act as if I am not scared. Yes, I want to be someone like that but there's still a big ball of fear inside of me that is stopping me from taking all of the risks in front of me.
My point is, when you gave someone your trust and that person broke it, no matter how much the degree is, that person still broke your trust. It's the fact that I kept thinking. What sucks is that, of all people, that one person you believed who will never break it, did it.
